How do I stop my top university fantasy from giving me depression at times?

So I went to a high school which didn't have much. Not many AP classes, SAT score was somewhere in the 1300s (average, for math + reading + writing), no sports, and really I lacked a backbone. Parents were not that supportive of my education goals. Overall, as many excuses as I can bother to list, I won't list them, I will simply take 100 percent responsibility for my mistakes.

In college I was not passionate about being a pre-med but my family did make a push to get me into it. 3 semesters later I am sitting at a 2.7 GPA. Failed organic chemistry with a D which depressed me to no ends.

Now with the winter break coming around, I have had time to learn some discipline. Told myself I was going to finish War and Peace in 7 days, just have about 200 more pages to read for today and I am done.

Sometimes the problem is I zone out. I grow into a victim mentality that I was literally screwed over in life. Unstable childhood, learning English late in life, not having a fair chance or even going to a half way decent high school, and having restrictive parents who barely let me do anything to build my resume.

I say its a fantasy because I know there is no humanly possible way I will ever get to attend Harvard, Columbia, Yale, Stanford, Duke, UC Berkeley, U of M Ann Arbour, or a school like Brown for graduate school or ever in my life for anything.

Thing is some of my childhood friends who went to private high schools are at such universities having the time of their life, they tell me this. Me? I am sitting at a college 5 minutes from my house and it hurts me at times thinking how much of an opportunity I never really had to get to a top school.

I am not saying I won't ever rise to the top but just I will never have that experience in life of going to an elite university or seeing how it is like being at one. I would like to get over this depression which frustrates me at times but how?

Source: http://forums.studentdoctor.net/showthread.php?t=877977&goto=newpost

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